New Days Ahead.

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  I haven’t written in a very long time. My mother now has terminal metastatic breast cancer of the spinal bones and she is in very poor condition. Truthfully I don’t know how much longer she has to live nor do the doctors. She has been hospitalized twice for unexplained blood loss and transfusions. I love my mother and don’t know what I will do without her.

My marriage has finally reached its end. I can no longer endured the isolation and non communication any longer. We have decided to end as friends at least for now. I hope that fact remains.   My son is still very ill. He has has 2 back surgeries since his car accident his senior year of high school and has not been able to matriculate to college or work. He will soon be 25 and I don’t know what to do to help him. I can barely help myself with all of my own health issues and now walking away from my marriage and the only support that I have. 

Life is too short not to be happy though and I can no longer live the life that I am living. I would rather live alone and be happy than to live with someone and be miserable for the rest of my days.

So I am taking a leap of faith and hoping that God will take care of us that is all I can hope and pray for.

These past years have been a nightmare of unhappiness for me that I can no longer endure.

Who knows what my future holds or how many more years I have left but I choose to face them head on hopefully with brighter days ahead😄

I a mother of 1 son, who is 29 We believe in God. I have and adore my 3 service dogs and 2 ESA cats. I have Service animals because I suffer from 9 autoimmune conditions which affect my nerves , bones, connective tissues and joints. I have had 15 surgeries, I live in pain 24/7 but I am very determined, very intelligent and it doesn't define me . In my spare time I enjoy writing books and poetry. I enjoy painting; collecting art. I like reading; collecting rare books, listening to music, of all genres,going to concerts. I have an extensive music collection. I also enjoy antiques, or just quirky old items. I am a collector of quality jewelry. I am also a major Gearhead,I feel the need, the need for speed. Traveling is also a given. I also enjoy Carolina Football. The Chiefs, The Steelers. Family is the 1 thing that is most important to me,I am fiercely loyal to my friends and family I am honest, faithful, loyal and believe integrity is a must.m

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